Holy

I feel incredibly unholy right now. I feel like I am so close to God, yet so far from where he wants me to be. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I pray for guidance and clarity, but I receive neither. My only hope is that I will soon figure this out, because I may lose my sanity if I do not.

Crow

I spend my entire life with my foot in my mouth, eating crow. I say things and as soon as they come out of my mouth, I regret them. I know that I will spend the rest of the day beating myself up over it. Unfortunately, I have no forethought. I never hesitate, never think things through before speaking. Whatever enters my head comes out of my mouth.

Cookie

I have got to make cookies for James. I keep promising him that he has sugar cookies coming to him, but then I keep forgetting. James is important to me. I want to maintain a good friendship between us and hopefully become closer. I am so ridiculously blessed to be surrounded by such wonderful people, him included.

Hairdo

I genuinely love it when my hair has just enough oil in it that it's not greasy, but I can still actually move it around. I play with my hair wayyyyy to much. The "tidal wave" look is terribly unattractive, I know, but I love the way it feels.

Boxing

We were boxing, we were boxing the stars. We were boxing, you were swinging for Mars.

I want to box with the stars. I feel the need to be rid of this planet. I want to no longer be grounded. I want freedom, I want real freedom. I no longer want gravity to have any kind of hold on me.

Pregnant

Oh my god, I can not believe you went and got yourself pregnant.  And now you're spending all of your time with the one girl who was in your situation, but worse.  Way worse.  Do you have any idea what you have gotten yourself in to?  And now you're doing coke?  Flipping jeeps?  Smoking everything in sight?  I pray for that baby.  I will pray for him or her every single freaking day.  Because they are going to need it.

Twig

Snapped.  Uncomfortable.  Confused.  Hopeless.  Desperate?  Longing.  Tired.  Weak.  Ready.  Unprepared.  Hurt.  Angry.  Shocked.